I've been lazy once agian and haven't been blogging...too much stuff to do xD
So far this year is ok, it was the first day of school today of this year...hahah i hate going back to school....they should have longer breaks xD
Nothing too special about my day today, at least i dont remember anything special besides the fact that i have bad luck with finding dresses =.= out of sizes...sigh...oh well =]
Kinda a bad idea to vent on my first post of the year but i came across this song and couldn't help but relating to it...its so true....
Rebel by Nikki Flores
(this is the chorus of the song....)
"You make it impossible to get to your heart
As soon as I'm close is when you close the door
You're pushing me far away and making it hard
I know what you're going through, been hurt before
So let down your guard, I'll show you love
But you're still running like a rebel without a cause
You make it impossible to get to your heart
You're still running like a rebel without a cause"
(this is the chorus of the song....)
"You make it impossible to get to your heart
As soon as I'm close is when you close the door
You're pushing me far away and making it hard
I know what you're going through, been hurt before
So let down your guard, I'll show you love
But you're still running like a rebel without a cause
You make it impossible to get to your heart
You're still running like a rebel without a cause"
kinda of my feelings right now towards this "fruit" i guess
i feel like it was just maybe a day thing, like being caught in the moment...but i guess not. Have i already fallen? Is it too late to turn back now? Sighhh i think too much huh? oh well xD
I dont mean that i relate to this COMPLETELY! haha cause this is like....LOVE not just a liking or something xD
but i feel like this "fruit" is like the lyrics, not completely but pretty much it...idk how to say it haha i guess its just i dont understand him....will i be able to one day?
What would happen he knew? Would he grow further away? would things be more akward? haha i think its a sign...a sign saying that i shouldn't keep hoping for impossible things. Sigh im thinking too much....why am i thinking about these things? All these what ifs and questions....they are completely useless and gets you nowhere.
sighh why does human nature have to be like this? well at least for me
why is it that i have to feel so happy around this person? why do i smile so easily? why can't i just avoid it? how can something that makes you so happy make you feel sad at the same time? sad isn't the right word...it really isn't...idk the word...but its like your missing something, you want something...
HAHAH idk how this came out of me xD
stupid english freaking stupid crap pointless POINTLESS! >=[
okok i should finish it now....freaking English =.=
haha thanks for reading ;]
i feel like it was just maybe a day thing, like being caught in the moment...but i guess not. Have i already fallen? Is it too late to turn back now? Sighhh i think too much huh? oh well xD
I dont mean that i relate to this COMPLETELY! haha cause this is like....LOVE not just a liking or something xD
but i feel like this "fruit" is like the lyrics, not completely but pretty much it...idk how to say it haha i guess its just i dont understand him....will i be able to one day?
What would happen he knew? Would he grow further away? would things be more akward? haha i think its a sign...a sign saying that i shouldn't keep hoping for impossible things. Sigh im thinking too much....why am i thinking about these things? All these what ifs and questions....they are completely useless and gets you nowhere.
sighh why does human nature have to be like this? well at least for me
why is it that i have to feel so happy around this person? why do i smile so easily? why can't i just avoid it? how can something that makes you so happy make you feel sad at the same time? sad isn't the right word...it really isn't...idk the word...but its like your missing something, you want something...
HAHAH idk how this came out of me xD
stupid english freaking stupid crap pointless POINTLESS! >=[
okok i should finish it now....freaking English =.=
haha thanks for reading ;]
I feel you. REading about how you smile made me smile. : )
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