another year has ended....

HAPPY NEW YEARS ALLLLLLL!!!!!!

Yes ye

s of course tabina will have beast related stuff!!

XDDD but anywhoooo aren't you allll glad that this year is over?! I bet many are as excited as they are!

yessss themmmm!!! in the picture to the left XDDD

they are so cute! i swear this year...damnnn i've been so obbessive over them! but hey! they are one heck of a talented group, they are no longer just the RECYCLED group! they have earned their title as BEAST ;]

Damnnnn their last performance of the year was WAYYY BEYOND GOOOD! YOSEOB hel

d the longest i dont knowwwww~ everrr that boy has sooo much talent! DAMN! but i guess the cutest stage was when they did T-ara's YA YA YA XDDD even though the cam was basically yoseob biased, i dont mind ;]

But time to get serious shall we ;]

I REALLY WANT TO SAY THANK YOU TO EVERYONE! that's right EVERYONE who has impacted me in life somehow! This year was really well....everything! sad happy boring stressful and any other word you can think of!!!! this break was really worth it! i had sooooo muchhhhh fun!

but anywhooo my post is dedicated to all of my love ones!!! I know we cry together, laugh together, bash together and even get angry with each other but you all need to know that i love you all!!!!!! yes yes i know i keep going on and on about the same thing but like idk how to do this post!!! XD

let's just hope that this year will bring even more laughter and happiness!!! SARANGHAEYO!

Ok time for me to dedicate a song to all of you guys too!

i already posted this but hey xD its a good song

and if you are reading this right now...at this time....[12/31/10 - 1/01/11] then the song should be playing toooooo

omggg

guess what?!

its out =]

3 duets =D

omg so time for tabina to rant on agian about how much she loves beast =]

they are so sweet! they have good fan service. so at their concert, they split into 3 duos xD kikwang with hyunseung, doojoon with dongwoon, and yoseob with junhyung =D

each pair came up with songs for the concert and omg its fabulous! they decided to put htem out into audio as a christmas gifts to the fans! and guess what!? they performed them tooo!!!! its so beautiful!

This first one is doojoon and dongwoon's 'when the door closes' it is truly beautiful! the mankae and the leader performing together? what a success dont you think? the piano and their voices....mmmmmmmmmmmmmm =]

this second one is yoseob and junhyung! it is such a goood song! im in love with it! it is so sweet! they wrote it for the fans =] its called thanks to! "we always singing just for you~" so catchy!!! i love their performance it is so nice =]

This one is kikwang and hyunseung's 'let it snow' its not bad =D not my most favorite but still they are great singers =]

yeapp and the best part? they are releasing a full version of lights go on agian too!!!!! i am so excited =]

this christmas

I want to smile this year.
Like the figures on the movies.
Under pretty Christmas trees
Sharing presents together and spending nights
I just wanna be in love this Christmas.
That's the only present I want.
To fall in love

Isn't this such a cute song? i just love how sweet it is, even though it can be sad i guess...x]

this year has been good so far! i speant this whole week with my wifeeeeeeeeee [the lily zhao!!] i swear....i think it was the whole week...

Let's see the last day of school for the 2010 school year was fun =D I spent it with lily and little freshy~ we went to the mall [beacuse we are "lame people with no lives" right? pshhhh] but yea that was exciting! we went to the skybridge at norstrom and got locked in! we were just sitting there and they randomly closed the gate on us =[ so we searched for an exit and i walked super fast cause lily said she saw the big black guy around the corner! i was soooo scared! xD

dudde...i dont even remember what i did this weekend...omg...wtf? xD

OH WAIT! i went to viet school on sunday xD that was interesting, there was a test and mr. trinh goes "Tabina can't spell right" right when he looked at my paper =p hahah but i was like, spellling dont count right? and he goes, only for the first page xD

oh yes its coming back! Saturday! i went to confession and it was AWESOME! the priest was the BEST! he was not only funny but made total sense in EVERYTHING! i wish more people would be like him when preaching, unlike those people that are self contradicting =_=

Then i left early and went to the red cross thing to hand out scarfs for the homeless, it was nice =] After that i hung out with....LILY! XD we went looking around pioneer and omg....H&M isn't that bad! i like a lot of their stuff =] but yeah we headed back to lily's house and little freshy also went with us =D

Ok so monday....i dont remember....wtf? im losing my memory xDD

TUESDAY however, we celebrated jane's birthday with a cook off! it was fun! everyone cooked and it was interesting, everything came out good =D then we went to burgervill so buy stuff to support the tennis team =] guess who i met there....LILY and FRESHY...wow...i hang out with them alot =]

WEDNESDAY lily and freshy came over to my house =] we hung out, played the nintendo 64, cooked, and baked and had piggyback rides =D then me and lily went to hoan's bowling thing, which was fun! sara and i improved throughout the night! i got my score up to 130 or something like that [that's right be proud of tabina] then lily slept over

TODAY sara, lily, and I went to give out the christmas cards to the elders at the Holgate center =] Then me and lily went to the mall to exchange my shirt and guess who went with us? freshy we are all one family now! xD jkjk

but yeah back to the song..[damn i went off topic fast xD] its a cute song, this christmas i do not want to be alone, i want to know that i still have a my friends and that when i step into next year, my friends will still be here. Good friends, old friends, new friends, whoever it may be, i need you all in my life because you guys are what makes me me =]

my boyfriend is back =]

so i haven't been blogging as much as i would've liked but i had to post up my happiness today!

So last friday, after being locked in norstrom, i had to take the bus home =/ it was cold and usually i dont mind but i was carrying a big ass pickachu home and i had my posters friends gave me. I got off the bus with my pickachu and then realized that my poster was still on the bus. i tried to run after it but it was too fast.
today i called and waht do you know? they have my posters!!!!

So when i called he was like "does the tube have this on it?"
i was like "yes!"
and he was like "oh im sorry we dont have it"
i was like "what? dot dot dot dot [sadest face on earth]
he goes "JUST KIDDDING hahah"
omgggggggggg i am soooo freaking happppppy! i just hope that the posters themselves are still in there D=

well these are the two that i had

this one is taeyang =]

Now this one is beast! my current obsession! yes i was very sad that my boyfriend was gone but now he has came back! oh yoseob =]

my 365th day of being 17

WAHHH a whole year has passed already?! This schoool year is going by toooo fast! i mean.....its not going to fast with regards to school work but too fast in regards to making memories T_T its already winter....just a few more months and its graduation =[

But yes, tomarr tabina is considered as an adult? HAHA screw that im still in high school, i am not ready to mature up yet!!!! haha well...compared to a year like freshman year, i have matured quite a lot dont you think so? xD

I want to go to sleep, im tired but my dad is celebrating.....makes no sense right? LOL yes he stayed at home all day just to get the house cleaned and ready. Of course i thought he did so because he cared abuot how the house will look tomarr for my friends and I, but nooooo it was for today. Now all the old people are drinking and singing....oh the typical vietnamese party. I guess the flip side to all of this is easy money =D

Another flip side was having this day basically care freee so i got to see KIMMY again =D haha she's my little neighbor but we never get to spend time together ever since school started xD so we ended up taking pictures =D she is the cutest little girl ever!

disappointment

“Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option”

How long must i be in this state? I don't know how much i can take it anymore.....everyday i seem to just be losing more and more hope for you. Just when i thought i had passed one barrier, it seems like another one just builds back up again....what is this? You are my priority, i'm always hoping you will be doing what you promised...all that you said....was it all just a lie? Why do i keep crawling back to you when i know it is just going to be the same thing....

You are not worth it......but if you really aren't..why do i keep trying? You had 31, but now you are down to 24 days.....are you taking what i purposed seriously? Am i just going to be dissapointed once again? I do not know. Am i even capable of this? I have lost all hope so far, i dont know if there's anything you can do. you haven't impressed me yet....you've shown no commitment, you don't even seem like you care to put out an effort....this is just my point of view though. who knows what excuse you will have this time...im so done with them. 24 days...no...that's too long......three...yes three more days and after that i'll be able to decide.

what now...

"Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not know which to do is the worse kind of suffering."

I wonder how much longer i am able to hold on..........