lazziness

<--- heeheee yes yoseob from beast/b2st, he was so adorable, but now he's so fine!! damnnn mmmmm! haha Yesterday I was actually very productive and did quite a lot of work, not as much as I was hoping I would finish but I finished my assigned reading book. I just need to finish my independent book and do the APUSH homework....two chapters...yay.
Around the afternoon yesterday I went to play tennis at mt. Tabor, I haven't played in so long! Haha it was good to hang out with my friends again haha, I was obnoxiously loud yesterday xD we played for a few hours and then decided to go home because the masquitoes were beginging to come out and a lot of us were bitten. I got bitten a lot on my legs.
Heehee my highlight was sara! haha she gave me a gift out of nowehre! haha metal chopsticks! haha i wanted them! she's such a sweetie pie =] yeaaa I went home and did more homeowrk and then went to sleep =]
^^ ^0^ ^^ oh how i love b2st =]
Yes, DooJoon, he's so sexyyy xD ---->
today was an ok day I guess school is boring as usual, gah I hate it though the viet school teacher is such a b word >=[ I was doing my American homework in class cause we weren't doing much and he came over and kept complaining blehh. The kids in my class are so annoying they all keep talking when the nun was tellin us stuff I wanted to slap everyone...grrr
Yeah so after that i went to my cousins house and there was my other cousin with us. Haha it was nice to hang out with them again, its been a while, i missed it =D Yeah so my older cousin came home and brought her two little kids! OMG they are so cute! haha i couldn't stop playing with the youngest one, she was like 4 months old gahh so cute! haha i want kids so badddddly,
I miss you...A LOT
It's been a whole day since i haven't talked to you...im not angry or sad, im just worried. I hope you are fine! I know you are sick and i understand that you need the rest, but i hope you didn't collapse or nothing else! Its going to be hard if everyday is like this Dx i hope we can pull through! Please dont let anything happen to you. I miss you lots

threetwentysixtwokayten

Hmm i never knew that this day would come. It's kinda interesting how when you said it, i was thinking of how to bring it up. im so happy right now i dont know what more i can ask for. Today i catched up on some reading, but didn't finish...sighh i need to not be so distracted. I speant quite an amount on you tube watching random stuff. i came across bubsbeatuy, i dont even know why i watched her tutorials. 1 i dont have long hair and 2 i dont wear makeup haha xD
I speant quite an amount of time on flickr as well, looking up pictures to blog with =] The stupid part is that some of the ones i saved didn't saved =[ i have to look for it all over agian ><>
hmmm my dad bought pizza today, its been a while since we had pizza from pizza hut. My mom came home right on time as well so all four of us sat and ate. Haha its been a while, even though we all just stared at the tv it was worth it i guess.
Talking about this makes me think of you. Its going to be very hard for the both of us, we are so far away from each other, but like you say, i think we can pull through. JY =]
I know you aren't as fortunate as i am, to come home to a home cooked meal but i want you to know that i am here for you and will always care for you. i love you from the bottom of my heart and will work hard so that one day you will be able to come home to a home cooked meal. You mean a lot to me and i will never let you go. Ni shi wo yung yuan de baby =)

oh nos! mood swings =/

i just realized how anti-social i kinda was this week, i went out to hang out like once or twice, but that was it really. Sigh i need to go play tennis again I dont know how i am feeling right now. I feel lonely, annoyed, like i am a bother, I dont really know my emotions right now. I feel like there are no words for it at all. sighhh I haven't done any homework this week either, i should start....so lazyy. i dont even know what i have done all week, I was just sitting here rotting away! gahhhh eff emm elll xD
So i was reading my book and came across this quote: "Passionate people create too many problems: they are reckless. They endanger others in their pursuit of fetishes and infatuations. And they self-agitate when it is better to simply relax and let matters be." i find that true, especially with me. When i am "passionate" i am floating in clouds, reality isn't where i am and when i fall back down, it is when everything hits me.
Dear God, Is this your way of testing me? I dont know what you want of me anymore, its so hard. Why do i have to be so insecure? Why do i question everything? Why can't i just be happy? Why is it that i like to make a big deal out of things? But i guess i shouldn't take things for granted should i? Thank you for giving me all that i have now, i am truly happy, i shouldn't be asking for too much. i hope this thing never ends, that this isn't just a big joke.
I miss you....
I really feel happy with you, but am i asking to much? I feel like im bothering you like im not worthy. maybe im really not worthy i dont know. Its so hard isnt it? Please tell me if you are tired of me, at least ill know. i really do like you a lot and i hope this lasts forever. I dont think that you aren't being true, but this seems to good to be true, i hope this isn't a dream that i will wake up from anytime soon.
13143314 these numbers at first were just numbers, but then you told me what they mean. who knew just simple numbers can mean something to meaningful. i believe in those numbers and will work hard to make them meaningful

yeap there goes tabina...blabbering on and on

damn you msn!!! >=[

So i woke up pretty early to chat, but my phone was being stupid. Actually msn was being stupid. It kept saying that bleh bleh bleh couldn't connect and there was another one saying that i was signed on somewhere else =.= YEah so i got angry and took my laptop upstairs and slept by it xD but the plug was being stupid so i had to make sure it was still charging >
Yeah so pretty soon i got out of bed brushed my teeth and shower and all taht morning crap xD
Yeah then i ate leftovers from yesterday and...browzed the web =] i was suppose to hang out with my cousins today, but the older one had plans popping up so we had to cancel it. So i was like ok, time to get some homeowrk in....pshhh i only got done with chemistry xD i dont even knwo if i did it right xD im not making progress with my book or pilllow at all haha damnn i procrastinate like crazy!
Yeah so my dad today bought burger king...haha havne't had fast food in so long xD and he bought union rings from sonic..they make the best ones =]
Took care of little kids again today. I dont get why my sister always end up crying because of those little kids! she lets them bully her! im like dude you're like 5 even 6 years older then they are you can handle them! gahh she's such a cry baby =_=
Yeah hmm i have a headache now i have no idea why...blehhh x_x
yeah so i watched the popular song thingy and guess what? BEAST WON! haha im so happy for them! they deserve it. haha all the members were crying, aj wouldn't stop crying...haha they look hot even when they are crying. Haha so apparently they are gonna come to LA to perform in may! im like no fair! why can't i be rich and go see my idol? gahh yoseob, dujun! gahhhh

hmm msn isn't being fair to us are they? we keep disconecting gahh so fusterating, but we can pull through right? =] lol dont worry, when you dont reply i knwo you are working or you fell asleep so its ok, you dont have to apologize =] heehee i felt very special when you sang today too. i hope it will let you open my file ><

Hm well that's all about my boring day, thanks for reading ;D

wasted my day =_=

So i woke up and chatted a bit. Then i decided to finish my book for english...ended up reading only one more chapter and did only one of the journal entries =.=
yeah that was my whole morning kinda boring haha well i did post up pictures and tagged people...omg tagging takes forever! so tiring xD
Yeah then i got ready to go to the retreat reunion. It was okay i guess. we were all waiting outside like half the class was, and this random guy comes out of nowhere and started to preach about god....he was like do you believe in him have you sin? do you know what redemtion is? Did you know about satin and stuff. It was freaky and when the security guard told him to leave, he was like i dont care if i go to jail and kept on talking. The whole group decided to migrate inside. Yeah so then after waiting for a while, we started to bowl. It was ok i guess, i wish my closer friends were there =/Gahh i suck at bowling =_= my highest was only 9 pins and my lowest was none...gahhh
Yeah so it was bac tuan's early birthday celebration and they baked him a penis cake... hahah so random! Yeah and there was a big card for him as well. I made him a card too...it was small though, like a normal size one...haha i hope he liked it. =/
yeah and when i left, i decided to reask the clerk if i needed to pay anything. They asked how many games did i play, i said how many i palyed and they told me to pay 5.75. i was stupid....apparently when we payed earlier we had already cover everything =.= sighh yeah way to end my night =.=
i miss you a lot right now D= when you told me that you read my posts i didn't realize that it was a lot of work for you. Cause i was looking at them and i have many useless and boring ones but you read all of them. you make me feel very special =] thank you
i know you can't talk now cause you are working but hopefully we can talk soon =]

three twenty =D

hmm today i finally actually got off my butt and went somewhere XD
i went to mojo crepes with my sister and we went to the bluesky next to it to get some bubble tea, i haven't had bubble tea from it in so long xD yeah so my little neighbor, the little girl, wanted to go and told her dad to drive here all the way to me! haha it was hilarious, i love that little four year old. So the original plan was to meet up with larry and everyone else and go to mt.tabor to play tennis afterwards...haha didn't work out cause the kids were with me D= Yeah so i decided to buy the kids crepes and we played the games there...i spent so much money on them D=

Yeah so then we walked to the max and from the max took it down to holgate and from there walked to the park. Haha i felt like a mom, i love kids xD i took so many pictures of them xD
Yeah so at the park i met up with lily, we talked a bit and soon an icecream truck came...haha yeap so i went and bought the kids ice cream...there goes my paycheck ><

On our way there, there was this guy walking towards us, to me he looked kind of like he's sick or mentally ill. He walked towards us and kept saying hi, i thought he knew lily but i guess not but i said hi back. he stuck out his hand and i guess he wanted a handshake so i shook his hand. He held my hand and like rubbed it with his fingers and go how old are you. Thankfully lily was walking on and so i was like im fifteen and ran to her hahah damn...i was scared D=
Yeah so we maxed to the mall and apparently, lily knows that guy and his family. She says him and his daughter and one of his son is mentally ill.

So we went to the mall and went window shopping xD we tried on dresses it was fun xD
Then we walked around and saw people with ice cream cones from ben and jerry's. Then we both remembered that they were giving out free cones today, lucky us =D Yeap so we got our ice cream and walked to life uniforms to look at scrubs for lily and then went to target =D Yeap and from there i went home and ate a good dinner =]

thanks for reading =]

blehhh xD

hmm since this morning i haven't done much, haven't made much progress on the pillow, i got as far as adding the letter r and a, haha im so slow xD
so there was little kids at my house today and it was time for dinner. They are so messy but they are so cute =D haha i felt like a mom, i was preparing food for them and stuff xD sighh i can't wait till i grow up and get my own babbies =] i want three xD either 2 or 6 years apart xD i dont know why i thought of that, but it just came to me. haha i want to spoil my kids in like vans and jordans and all that good stuff ;]
I attempted to finish english today, fail fail fail i get too bored of doing it xD i am sooo gonna stuffer this week xD
hmm today overall was very relaxing, i haven't been able to enjoy my day for a while. no stress no worries, i hope this week goes by slowly, i dont want to go to school D=

hmm you are probably gonna read it again xD haha i know you are busy so i dont mind waiting for you to reply, ill wait for you =]

first officially school day of spring break

This morning started out pretty swell =D
i was able to catch up on my manga, its so intense omg omg omg XD i love, love stories =D
I actaully woke up early today but decided to dooze around in bed and didn't get out till like 10...haha idk why i woke up so early, usually i would just woke up at 10 XD
It has been a very good morning but i had the randomest dream! It was a dream where people were trying to kill me? it was so random, like this dream happend before but i was able to survive and now its teh same thing only excpt they know how i escape so they deiceded to come up with a new plan. Before the ending happend, i woke up HAHA i wonder was i supose to die or not xD yeapps...so today i guess ill try to finish up meng meng's pillow...haha im so lazy xD! almost done, i just need to sew on the letters, but the letter has a red stain on them oh nos! i hope its ok x]

you're the other half of my heart
i'll become the other half of your heart
every moment that you breathe
i'll love you
even as time passes and our wrinkles grow
you and me, we'll be together forever like now

i'll love you more
i'll care for you more
when tears fall and it's hard
when it hurts, we'll hurt together
i'll love you forever
i'll protect you forever
i'm thankful that i met someone as great as you
i want to love only you everyday

~ will you marry me by lee seung gi

THis is such a cute song =] it totally states how i feel though
You are a very sweet and caring person and i am thankful that i have met someone as special as you =] You make me feel very special. Today was fun, it was the first time i had done that with someone, thank you for spending your time with me =] thank you for making me feel on top of the world today =D

Secret (the one movie with jay chou)

secret was a movie i watched today, it featured jay chou so i decided to check it out cause i came across his song, a secret i cannot tell; which turned out to be the ost of the movie. The movie was very good for the most part but i think it was kinda rushed, but it wasn't a drama so i guess it had a time limit xD
It was a really cute movie i thought, well the beginning was. Then it got more and more interesting like, omg what's going to happen and such. then the ended was so not expected for me, i expected a happy ending but it wasn't =[[[[[[ gahhh i usually can control myself in movies and not cry but i was sobbing D= it was such a beautiful movie x]
i hate watching movies with sad endings cause i emo over it for a while xD haha im so weird xD
But seriously, its just so sad to know that even though you can find the one you are destined to be with, things don't always work out. Sometimes life can be that unfair, but then i guess you just have to look past that. Sometimes the best thing to do is to just ignore the downside and look forward to what's the best =]

confirmation retreat

This time last week was the last day of my three day retreat at some place in Milwaukee. I didn't expect to remember it so much but it was the best weekend i had this month. It really opened my eyes and in a way strengthened my faith in god. haha from that i added like a whole bunch of new facebook friends xD
The first day was chill i guess, it was kinda awkward cause there was so many people but it got better. We got split into groups and mines was the yellow group and we named ourselves lemon heads =D We did a pretty cool activity called the trust walk, i think xD We were blindfolded and couldn't talk and we could only follow a person who didn't talk but just guide us with their hands. I thought it was pretty cool =]
Yeah then we had a lot of little group talks and it was similar to circle, oh how i love circle =D
We did a lot of other activities too haha there was even one where we mediated, kinda xD Oh yeahh we also learned some songs =D
I really missed the camp but the good thing is that we have a reunion this week =D i can't wait

So its been a while since i did blog and i have nothing to emo about really. haha well besides the fact that school...SUCKS i repeat, SUCKS hahha. The only thing that's been pretty cool is clinicals at the VA. I got to interact with patients with is pretty cool, all of them are really nice =]
I haven't been feeling down lately so i guess that's good =] I am actually very happy right now too =] I am happy because i found you, haha i know it hasn't been long but you are able to make me smile and feel good about myself. i am lucky to have found you =]