i have no life xD

Yes, its not that well done xD
But i was bored in class so i doodled =D
the quote on the bottom is from lullaby by joey moe, great song check it out ;]
his song goodbye is pretty good too xD

what now? =/

Lyrics from 2AM - Even if i die, i can't send you away

"Why do you lie, saying it’ll be okay?
How will my heart that hurts this much
Be healed so easily?
How will I live without you?
That’s why I

Can’t let you go, even if I die
How am I suppose to let you go?
Whether you go or leave, fix my heart
If you can’t fix it so that I won’t be in pain
So that I can at least live
I wouldn’t be able to live anyway
I can’t let you go, even if I die..."

Lyrics from Jojo - Keep forgetting

"Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning around in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't want to think about you baby so much"

What to do now? Just when i thought it was all gone, i found out that its still there. How can i forget about you? How can i just block you out of my mind? I dont know what to do, i dont know how much i can take. I dont want to be selfish, i dont want to be jealous, but i dont know how to feel. Im happy to be able to talk to you, and i hope this will never end, but there's nothing there. Our conversations, are dead, i dont know what to say. It seems like you dont care, like you never have the time or mindset to talk to me. I sit infront of the screen, i hesitate to type. I hesitate to type out the words that i really want to say, i want to tell you so much i want to keep talking to you, but what's the point? I say stuff, but its not what i wnat to tell you, i feel like you know but then do you? i feel like im a burden to you, as though im just a waste of time. I dont know what you want from me. You told me you dont like playing with people, and i dont want to not trust you but its so hard. i dont know, i feel like you know you have my heart in your hands, and you are just tossing it around.....i want to trust you, but you dont show it.

Im tired, i dont want to keep pretending, i dont want to keep acting infront of you. I htought maybe i was strong enough to let you go, becaused i loved you too much, but i dont have that talent. (yes i kinda bit off an jing xD, but that's not important now is it? ;] ) It aches too much, i hate this feeling, why can't i just be normal in front of you? why do i have to put on a mask and deal with all the pain by myself? Why do you keep changing? sighhh

sighhh....who knows what to do now. My mood just dropped out of nowhere...oh nos! im getting mood swings! am i turning bi polar?! nooooo xD

=D

i decided...i want to make a book!
=D
like a kiddie picture one
=D

=]

finished on 2/1/10

Yeah, i drew it yesterday in viet school....i was so bored and the teacher was just plan mean >=[ Yeah but i finished coloring it and stuff today =D
now to get started with homework >=[
i forgot my notebook at school....im screwwwwwwwwwwed