end of the year post =]

Let's see...this year...wow this year so much had happened...i think it went by too fast.

Let's see it was the end of sophomore year and the beginning of junior year....gosh junior year is really as what people say, very stressful and full of crap.

LEt's see...i made closer friendship ties while kinda losing some but i didn't completely lose them yet...its still hanging there by a thin thread and hopefully ill be able to strengthen it =] I dont ever want to lose a friend so hopefully the ties wont ever break and will always be able to be repaired. hahah dont i sound like a geek...using all these literary devices HAHHAHA where's ms. gromko this should be an A+ xD

This year..i changed a lot i think, i also developed a alter ego...haha yes i have two different personalities! OH NO? oh yes! hahah OH THE IRONY.... hmmm you wanna know both sides? hmm idk how you are gonna do that but if you can do that...i praise you xD

I met some interesting people this year and made friends that i never even thought of making xD every SINGLE (no i dont mean relationship wise) person i met have created an impact onto my life, yes it can be bad or good but either way you made a change somehow im my life =] I also tried a lot of new things and this year...i've beeen hanging out more often and eating out more often...tsk tsk all this bad influences haha just kidding!

There was drama this year...you dont expect it but random shit pops up and you dont know waht to do about it....tsk tsk xD but i guess we kinda got through, all of us did i think =]
i guess i had some pretty bad days and such, like sitting on that broken chair...walking home in that storm....that six hour car ride due to the snow....and other random crap. Haha i guess i also had some of my emotional ventings on this blog...and emotional moments in general during my life xD. But i guess ill get stronger from them and will become a better person by it =]

I am thankful for all my friends and everyone i know and everyone i meet xD
yes i am very thankful to be living in general. Thank you all for making wonderful memories with me.
hmmm since i have the time ill list out some out of the top of my head xD

• talking online
• karaoking
• hotpot
• running for that bus
• singing randomly in downtown
• "are you two going out?" *turns head to the side "HA HA HA HA"
• "umm hay ya" and "mo cum lah"<---- i think xD
• "KEYOTA!"
• all those times i randomly go ayanghaceyo saranghaeyo xD
• fussing over big bang; TAEYANG and DAESUNG big time
• new obsession with b2st...YOSEOB and DOOJOON =]
  
• going out to eat
• playing tennis
• going to the mall when there's nowhere else to go
• listening to me yell stuff out of the top of my lungs
• haha squealing over cute guys, yes those liang chays ;D
• eating our butts off
• sleepovers
• movies
• gossiping all night....yeah that one time...all the way till 3...AM
• attempting to dance...yes the butt dance, sorry sorry, ring ding dong, and all that good stuff xD
• "the store is close"
• sushi land...yes sushi land, with them short short booths
• telling each other secrets =]
• "Mrs. KoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooCHHHHHHHH" haha
• playing in the team tournaments
  

***yeah that's all i can think of now...but that;s just like the beginning of the list...the list wouldn't fit here i think

hmm i learned a lot of new things this year as well...a lot of new things xD
i also tried alot of new things and did things that even i didn't know i have the courage or would ever think of doing. And of course there were alot of regrets this year. I guess we all just have to learn and adapt right? ;]
In a way i have also learned to not try to take everything for granted and also learned to let go kinda....sorta....idk xD
I realized that i slack off alot and i should try and do better....try and do ALOT better cause im just stressing myself xD

Hmmmm also...i think i became very dependent this year....i rely to much on trying to fill up my boredom by talking to people and if there's no one to talk to ill feel hopeless and alone...i need to stop xD


yeap...hmmm idk what else to write...should i vent? sure why not end of the year venting =]
(lets make it a different font ;])
hmmm soo vent vent....im in a pretty happy mood right now so there's really nothing in my mind...haha im really happy for my friend who just found her "prince" she seems very happy right now and she deserves it!
as for me, iunno could i possibly be falling for this new "fruit" [christina knows what i mean]. It's been infront of my eyes for a long time, but i never really took notice of him, but who knows xD he has the ability to make me smile and has the ablity to warm up my heart but am i good enough for him? haha who knows...i wonder what he views me as xD
it could also be that i just fall to easily....i trust people to easily at times i realized lol. I smile to easily, forgive to easily, and open my heart up to easily sometimes and get disappointed in the end. I need to stop expecting so much and thinking so much about what ifs and such cause what ifs are what ifs...they aren't certain.
parents this year...tsk tsk very idk the word. They seems to be very inconsiderate and mean >=I my sister is being even more of a little brat i dont get her. sighh nothing i can do about it though, i dont even talk to her so im not even gonna bother....sometimes i envy those families that are so close to each other...i dont get how they can be so close. i mean they tell their parents and siblings EVERYTHING, haha yes EVERYTHING. I cant do that...my parents sighh....nah xD

that's it for this year...ill see you guys next year! =]
thank you for spending your time reading this pointless site xD
haha SARANGHAEYO!!!! <3
HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE! lets make 2010 memorable!

christmas day =]

Yeah so i woke up today and went to chruch. It was kinda uncomfortable because we sat inside this time, too many people trying to squeeze into the seats =.= Yeah it was very windy today though, i didn't want to walk outside at all. So when we drove to the market, i just wanted to stay inside the car to avoid the cold wind, but i guess i was forced to go in because i was BRIBED!!!! haha yeap my own father bribed me, it was either i go in and get something to eat for breakfast or starve! hahahah >=[
Yeah so we went home and i enjoyed my udon and my little asian drink :D yum yum

yeah then i helped my mom do all the food, peel the shellfish and other crap xD. Yeah then pretty soon people started to come and it because very akward....adults just try to start a convo with you but it ends very fast....pretty akward if you ask me xD yeah so i ended up just stuffing myself in my room. HAHA i have a new obsession, b2st =] especially yoseob =] heehee that little cutie =]

Yeah so my friend today had good news im very happy for her =] Ill support her all the way =]
there are just some people out there though that i dont get, i dont see why they have to be so selfish sometimes? can't they just try to see it from the other person's point of view? yeah oh well i guess that's their problem, you can't change who they are sometimes =.= but i guess that's what makes them them, gotta accpet them and everything right? ;]

Sighh when am i going to find my prince? just when i think i found him, reality hits and we can't be together.....sigh....what's happening to my life? What happen to the tabina that doesn't care about anything but just focus on school and having a fun life with people i love....i hate how much i have changed. I guess you can't have something forever and you just have to learn how to let go to and take all the happy memories with you....but its so hard sometimes because you can't accpet that its not there anymore.
ill miss all those good times though...if you are reading this...i hope things work out for you =] FIGHTING =D

cold cold cold

ok today started kinda stupidly. I had to be stuck at home because of my sister =.= i sacrafice too much for that little spoiled brat =.= its not fair D=
anywhoo yeah so after a while for wasting my life, i went on audi and made some new friends =]
yeah then i kept moping around the house pissed looking at my sister =.=
then pretty soon she left and i was freeee =D
i guess i was able to go hang out with people but i had to be home in time to let my sister back into the house ayyyyy.
haha so i met up with them and we went to sushi land. I forgot how much i hate the clackamas one because its booths were wayyyyyy to low for the table. yeah i sat in the middle, so my arm kept blocking lily's, oh how i hate being left handed at times xD Yeah i ate a lot, kinda got carried away, i forgot that i was TRYING to control my spendings. HAHA oh wells it was worth it =] i ended up staying longer because my neighbor told me she would keep a look out for my sis for me. oh how i love neighbors =] i saw our "best friends"" there haha, i think i was being kinda rude though, D=
Yeah so we ate then walked back to the mall and then to the bus. it was cold and fun singing and dancing and all xD
jiahuan kept trying to start things >=I its cool though brah xD
Yeah so i went home and went online again. I searched up seo in gook because his song young love was so good. And it turns out his song calling you is BOMB too haha he amazes me~ he did a good cover of look only at me too =]
yeap that was my lame day. Started bad but ended ok =]

response to my PingPongBoy (fanfiction)

for those of you who are interested in reading it here's the link: http://www.wattpad.com/144816?p=1 =D

This was a very cute and addicting story, it was as though it was a whole length Korean drama written on paper! There were even some parts that i could just visualize in my head as though i have seen it as a movie before. I give it 5 thumbs up! hahah whoops i meant 2 thumbs up, or 5 stars....same difff....the point is that it was good =]
It was kinda cliche if you ask me, but im into that kind of chick flicks ;]

The story line was full of actions, ups and downs and moved me HAHA im such a big cry baby when it comes to movies or dramas XD
But back to my last post, its just giving false hope. I like reading fictions but at the same time i hate them. I like how it makes me imagine a perfect relationship like how my prince charming is going to pop out one day. At the same time though, i hate how its giving people too high of hopes. Sigh....im such an emotional wreck yo, going back to what i posted in the last post HAHA. REPETITION! hahah (nerrrrrrrrd)
yeah but right now, tabina's mind hasn't been focused on guys haha, NOT SAYING that i've been homo! no lol im just not paying attention to anything beisdes staying alive in school xD
who knows, maybe this week, due to no school, ill start noticing people? haha who knows ;D

venting =D

I love mangas and fanfantasies but they are sometimes wayyyyy to addicting....books are too, especially the romantic ones. The thing that I dislike about them sometimes is the fact that they are so out of reach sometimes. I like how they can move me so much, making me laugh, hope, fear, be angry, and sometimes cry haha yeah I'm a big emotional crybaby xD they give me too much false hope though because it's just a story, how is something that wonderful ever going to happen to me? It's just too unrealistic, all this prince charming crap, I feel like it's too out of reach for someone like me. Sure you keep saying that one day he will come and sweep me off my feet but one day could mean never as well and it can also mean not forever...sighh I sound like a big emotional wreak LOL

oh yeah and effing people trying to make things worse is getting on my last effing nerves. seriously! who the hell do you think you are? You think you are all that? you aren't anything at all. God damnit i have no idea where you got the nerves to go and say shit but you better keep your mouth shut.....hahahha i dont think they will ever come across my blog and if they do i dont think they know im talking about them.
oh how i love bloggs =]

back to blog =]

Wow, I haven't blogged in so long xD partly because I'm just so damn lazy and partly because I never got the time to. Now when I do have the time, I have nothing to blog about and when I do have the time to blog I don't remember what happend xD
Ok so today was the first day of break I got to sleep in ^0^ I speant my whole morning folding clothes and reading my manga :] oh yeah and fanfantasies :D so addicting and good =]

Yeah I guess I'll blog about my birthday last week....I think it was last week xD
It was fun we went to hotpot. The place was small and dirty. The only thing I liked about it was the unlimted good seafood and the lamb :] other than that, it wasn't really worth the price, I guess next time I'll stick to places I know, cause whenever I try a new place it's a failure -.-
We hung around pioneer square under thr tree afterwards and did random stuff haha fun fun :] oh yeah me and Tri had to like find a place for him to pee when we were waiting for the bus hahaha it was funny. Thank you you guys who wasted your time for a loser like me :]
the next day I went to sinju sushi with others. It was expensive and wasn't really that worth it if you didn't know what to order I guess, there goes another new place xD. Thank you for those who had to spend so much there, sorry next time we shall go back to like familiar places >

Ok, yesterday me and Christina played doubles it was one of the funnest games that I've played and I felt that we both did well. Christina did great covering my ass and crap when I was at the net. They were a tough team but we managed to get games off them we were pretty close if I do say so myself. The first set I think was like 3-6? Maybe more? But the last one was 4-6 it was a duce point too :] heeeeheee I got an overhead and some winning vollyes as well, Christina had some amazing winning shots as well as an overhead :D I hope me and her will be able to partner up again =DD

Yeah so this break will totally be filled up with hoemowrk and more homework sighhh -.- hopefully exciting stuff shall happend this break to blog about :D

Thanks for reading and stay tuned ;D



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