another year has ended....

HAPPY NEW YEARS ALLLLLLL!!!!!!

Yes ye

s of course tabina will have beast related stuff!!

XDDD but anywhoooo aren't you allll glad that this year is over?! I bet many are as excited as they are!

yessss themmmm!!! in the picture to the left XDDD

they are so cute! i swear this year...damnnn i've been so obbessive over them! but hey! they are one heck of a talented group, they are no longer just the RECYCLED group! they have earned their title as BEAST ;]

Damnnnn their last performance of the year was WAYYY BEYOND GOOOD! YOSEOB hel

d the longest i dont knowwwww~ everrr that boy has sooo much talent! DAMN! but i guess the cutest stage was when they did T-ara's YA YA YA XDDD even though the cam was basically yoseob biased, i dont mind ;]

But time to get serious shall we ;]

I REALLY WANT TO SAY THANK YOU TO EVERYONE! that's right EVERYONE who has impacted me in life somehow! This year was really well....everything! sad happy boring stressful and any other word you can think of!!!! this break was really worth it! i had sooooo muchhhhh fun!

but anywhooo my post is dedicated to all of my love ones!!! I know we cry together, laugh together, bash together and even get angry with each other but you all need to know that i love you all!!!!!! yes yes i know i keep going on and on about the same thing but like idk how to do this post!!! XD

let's just hope that this year will bring even more laughter and happiness!!! SARANGHAEYO!

Ok time for me to dedicate a song to all of you guys too!

i already posted this but hey xD its a good song

and if you are reading this right now...at this time....[12/31/10 - 1/01/11] then the song should be playing toooooo

omggg

guess what?!

its out =]

3 duets =D

omg so time for tabina to rant on agian about how much she loves beast =]

they are so sweet! they have good fan service. so at their concert, they split into 3 duos xD kikwang with hyunseung, doojoon with dongwoon, and yoseob with junhyung =D

each pair came up with songs for the concert and omg its fabulous! they decided to put htem out into audio as a christmas gifts to the fans! and guess what!? they performed them tooo!!!! its so beautiful!

This first one is doojoon and dongwoon's 'when the door closes' it is truly beautiful! the mankae and the leader performing together? what a success dont you think? the piano and their voices....mmmmmmmmmmmmmm =]

this second one is yoseob and junhyung! it is such a goood song! im in love with it! it is so sweet! they wrote it for the fans =] its called thanks to! "we always singing just for you~" so catchy!!! i love their performance it is so nice =]

This one is kikwang and hyunseung's 'let it snow' its not bad =D not my most favorite but still they are great singers =]

yeapp and the best part? they are releasing a full version of lights go on agian too!!!!! i am so excited =]

this christmas

I want to smile this year.
Like the figures on the movies.
Under pretty Christmas trees
Sharing presents together and spending nights
I just wanna be in love this Christmas.
That's the only present I want.
To fall in love

Isn't this such a cute song? i just love how sweet it is, even though it can be sad i guess...x]

this year has been good so far! i speant this whole week with my wifeeeeeeeeee [the lily zhao!!] i swear....i think it was the whole week...

Let's see the last day of school for the 2010 school year was fun =D I spent it with lily and little freshy~ we went to the mall [beacuse we are "lame people with no lives" right? pshhhh] but yea that was exciting! we went to the skybridge at norstrom and got locked in! we were just sitting there and they randomly closed the gate on us =[ so we searched for an exit and i walked super fast cause lily said she saw the big black guy around the corner! i was soooo scared! xD

dudde...i dont even remember what i did this weekend...omg...wtf? xD

OH WAIT! i went to viet school on sunday xD that was interesting, there was a test and mr. trinh goes "Tabina can't spell right" right when he looked at my paper =p hahah but i was like, spellling dont count right? and he goes, only for the first page xD

oh yes its coming back! Saturday! i went to confession and it was AWESOME! the priest was the BEST! he was not only funny but made total sense in EVERYTHING! i wish more people would be like him when preaching, unlike those people that are self contradicting =_=

Then i left early and went to the red cross thing to hand out scarfs for the homeless, it was nice =] After that i hung out with....LILY! XD we went looking around pioneer and omg....H&M isn't that bad! i like a lot of their stuff =] but yeah we headed back to lily's house and little freshy also went with us =D

Ok so monday....i dont remember....wtf? im losing my memory xDD

TUESDAY however, we celebrated jane's birthday with a cook off! it was fun! everyone cooked and it was interesting, everything came out good =D then we went to burgervill so buy stuff to support the tennis team =] guess who i met there....LILY and FRESHY...wow...i hang out with them alot =]

WEDNESDAY lily and freshy came over to my house =] we hung out, played the nintendo 64, cooked, and baked and had piggyback rides =D then me and lily went to hoan's bowling thing, which was fun! sara and i improved throughout the night! i got my score up to 130 or something like that [that's right be proud of tabina] then lily slept over

TODAY sara, lily, and I went to give out the christmas cards to the elders at the Holgate center =] Then me and lily went to the mall to exchange my shirt and guess who went with us? freshy we are all one family now! xD jkjk

but yeah back to the song..[damn i went off topic fast xD] its a cute song, this christmas i do not want to be alone, i want to know that i still have a my friends and that when i step into next year, my friends will still be here. Good friends, old friends, new friends, whoever it may be, i need you all in my life because you guys are what makes me me =]

my boyfriend is back =]

so i haven't been blogging as much as i would've liked but i had to post up my happiness today!

So last friday, after being locked in norstrom, i had to take the bus home =/ it was cold and usually i dont mind but i was carrying a big ass pickachu home and i had my posters friends gave me. I got off the bus with my pickachu and then realized that my poster was still on the bus. i tried to run after it but it was too fast.
today i called and waht do you know? they have my posters!!!!

So when i called he was like "does the tube have this on it?"
i was like "yes!"
and he was like "oh im sorry we dont have it"
i was like "what? dot dot dot dot [sadest face on earth]
he goes "JUST KIDDDING hahah"
omgggggggggg i am soooo freaking happppppy! i just hope that the posters themselves are still in there D=

well these are the two that i had

this one is taeyang =]

Now this one is beast! my current obsession! yes i was very sad that my boyfriend was gone but now he has came back! oh yoseob =]

my 365th day of being 17

WAHHH a whole year has passed already?! This schoool year is going by toooo fast! i mean.....its not going to fast with regards to school work but too fast in regards to making memories T_T its already winter....just a few more months and its graduation =[

But yes, tomarr tabina is considered as an adult? HAHA screw that im still in high school, i am not ready to mature up yet!!!! haha well...compared to a year like freshman year, i have matured quite a lot dont you think so? xD

I want to go to sleep, im tired but my dad is celebrating.....makes no sense right? LOL yes he stayed at home all day just to get the house cleaned and ready. Of course i thought he did so because he cared abuot how the house will look tomarr for my friends and I, but nooooo it was for today. Now all the old people are drinking and singing....oh the typical vietnamese party. I guess the flip side to all of this is easy money =D

Another flip side was having this day basically care freee so i got to see KIMMY again =D haha she's my little neighbor but we never get to spend time together ever since school started xD so we ended up taking pictures =D she is the cutest little girl ever!

disappointment

“Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option”

How long must i be in this state? I don't know how much i can take it anymore.....everyday i seem to just be losing more and more hope for you. Just when i thought i had passed one barrier, it seems like another one just builds back up again....what is this? You are my priority, i'm always hoping you will be doing what you promised...all that you said....was it all just a lie? Why do i keep crawling back to you when i know it is just going to be the same thing....

You are not worth it......but if you really aren't..why do i keep trying? You had 31, but now you are down to 24 days.....are you taking what i purposed seriously? Am i just going to be dissapointed once again? I do not know. Am i even capable of this? I have lost all hope so far, i dont know if there's anything you can do. you haven't impressed me yet....you've shown no commitment, you don't even seem like you care to put out an effort....this is just my point of view though. who knows what excuse you will have this time...im so done with them. 24 days...no...that's too long......three...yes three more days and after that i'll be able to decide.

what now...

"Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not know which to do is the worse kind of suffering."

I wonder how much longer i am able to hold on..........

First Snow, First Kiss

"The person who stole my heart already
I think I can give you my all, you are my first love
White like the snow, without me knowing anything
Love comes to me
The stars in the night sky are even giving us blessings
If you are here I sing
Even in the cold rain winds and the dark nights come upon us
My heart will never change, I promise
Hoping that girl in my dreams will speak of love
I'm waiting for the first snow
On the streets where the first snow falls
Meeting eyes with her
I flew above the skies holding her in my arms
You are my first love
On the streets where they exchange love
Kissing her on her lips
Let's spend this night together, together forever
You are my first love" [credits to b2strising.com] ~ First Snow, First Kiss by Yoseob and Drama

This must be the sweetest song i have heard this year! Not only that, i have never seen such close relationships with singers from different groups. And no, they aren't gay, he's crying because he knows that after this production, him and yoseob won't see each other for a long time agian. They were very good friends and this career makes it hard for them to have time to hang out and such. The mv is below, this is so cute but it can be tear jerking if you allow it to be i guess D= anywhooo enjoy ;]

Yes, yoseob is still so fine ;] and i still believe in dooseob as well even though this was a true tie xD

damnnnn boyyy

DAMNNNN what schoool do you boys go to? let me go too ;]

To Jenny Chau =D

Facebook, wouldn't do the hyperlinks correctly for me so here i go =D
Dear Jenny, i would attempt a rap to describe how much you mean to me, but i would fail in a worse way than yoseob did. You are one amazing girl! you are very
beautiful girl, you need to start realizing that!!! I LOVE how when you use big words and i am lost, you still define those words for me =] I trust you a lot and i know that i can tell you anything, you know more things about me than most people do. I know that i can come to you and cry and just let lose in front of you. I don't just consider you as my best friend because i feel that we are closer than that =] I am very greatful for the times we have in class and how we have soooo many things to laugh out loud about. i love spamming you with
sexy or cute pictures of beast, because i know you will look at them =D I know i can be a handful at times, like when i'm angry or dorky and i thank you for putting up with it. LOL even though i hate it, i still let you pinch my cheeks even though sometimes i want to hit you back. I really admire how strong you are and just know its ok to once in a while be weak and come to me, my shoulders are always there for you. over all, i am very thankful to have you in my life, i LOVE you soooooo much! Let's go make more
memories together and make the best out of the rest of this school year. YES! bow down to my beast spamming even when im doing something meaningful ;] aisteruuuuu

but you won't do the same...

"you don't just stop loving someone,

either you never did or you always will."

Self-explained....

This week wasn't bad i guess....just the same old same old. School is still as boring and as time consuming as ever =p

idk....things are just boring....

someone asked me this week if i like anyone

and i answered as no. I thought about it more and realized that its true, i really like no one anymore and haven't been thinking of liking anyone...i guess my head has been in the right place and has been focusing on the important stuff? Sighhh i guess im just done with boys for the moment, haha i guess i just liked too many and now realized that they are all the same XD

But if i had to pick a type of boyfriend that i want...i would say yoseob ;] hahha even if i dont truely know him, i like his voice, his cuteness, and his personality. Let me repeat that i do not know him, so therefore its true that i like the image he allows others to see and what he says through his internviews...so dont start hating on me and saying "you dont even know him" fuck off =_=

YOSEOB = TABINA's BOYFRIEND IDOLLLLLL =] yes he's the image of my perfect kind of guy. I use the world image for a reason because i know there isn't another yoseob in the world and its impossible to get the perfect someone.

But yeah he's so adorable!

<---- Gahhhhhhhh i am so in love with my desktop background =D its snapshots of yoseob in the beautiful mv =] sometimes i just wish i could understand and speak korean xD

"I like you the best and I only need you
I’m going to engrave you in my heart
You’re the most important in my life"

~ I like you the best by B2st

This is such a cute song! i liked it when i first heard it =] i was so excited to watch them perform it! i just wish it was the whole song!!!! they are so cute! but i swear yoseob just gets all my attention! his voice is so beautiful!!!! he's just as amazing live!

i like you b2st XD

damnnnnnnnnnn helllllllla sexy and seductive move ;] he's cute and sexy what more can a girl want? xD

nothing better than you =]

My bias =]

Yoseob always manage to somehow sing my favorite parts of any song =D

hahaha time to spam some yoseob loveeeeeeeeee ;]

That felt good ;]

this is my most favorite seen in the whole mv =D

breath in breath out, huuuuu huuuuu xD

I spent my veteran's day at vickys house =]

it was fun! we finally finished our MAMA project video

hahah we are such dorks, we know we wont win but it was fun!

our video is silly and not as good as others D= but it was worth it =]

enjoyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

my obsession

You boys are so dorky and handsome ;]

i love how they always manage to make my day better =]

i can't wait till tomarr =]

i'm sorry

"I, who pushed your clinging body away
I, who regretted after sending you away
I miss you like this
Miss you miss you" ~ B2st - I'm sorry

Speaks for itself

10th week of school

ummm i dont remember......xD i went to jennifer's sleepover =]

yeah other than that....i dont remember much xD but anywhooo yeah my camera is being stupid so no pics

howeverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr me and vicky did our b2st fan video message =D

lights go on again =D

Today wasn't that good of a day....i realize that i am a bitch and a stupid one too...actually i already know i am im just emphasizing it.

The reason why im so mean about others may not make sense but at least they do to me....i can't help it..its my nature...you don't like it? "thank you come again" =]

(yeah whoever edited this picture kind failed...but i used it anways =D)

Anywhooooo even after a stupid day at school tennis sometimes makes it better. And after

tennis what makes it even better is that i get some time to myself and do whatever i want, and beast usually helps bring ten minutes of heaven into my life....well especially today that is, this mv is so calming...it calmed down my anger =]

and you can call me obsessive? but please dont imply it as though im some crazy stalker...i am not, you know why? because i do not stalk them, i am not even half as intensive as some of the other fans out there ok?

anywhooo back to my point, these boys are amazing, they have a lot of potential dont you think? =] their voices are amazing, heehee this is their teaserrrrrrrrrrrrr...even though the album came out already

Their voices are amaaaaaaaazing and yoseob? dont get me started, that boy can sing! everyone was soooo perfect! junhyung's rapping is sooooo mellllow xD they just remind me of angels against the background =]

like crazy

"My heart still hurts, I can't hold in my tears
Even though I said I had already forgotten, even if I try to lie to myself
Because I still can't forget you
*My tears falling like crazy, at this rate, what am I going to do
I want to live proudly, what to do, my tears keep falling*
What did I do wrong
Why did we separate
I don't know the reason, I'm so furious
No matter how hard I try to forget, in the end it's still you"

Lyrics from Like Crazy by 2AM

they are an amazing group....all their songs are very emotional and powerful

Where are you? how can you just disappear like that? What happened to the things you promised? I don't need you to come back into my life completely, i just want to know you are ok. I just need to talk to you to know that the thing we had was real....sigh....i dont want you doubt anything...but i can't help it.

When will i get pass the disconnected line? When can i reach through to you?

Here is another song from their new album

the story line is a bit confusing

So the storyline that made sense to me was that in the beginning, the circled date

was their anniversary or something. He picks up the phone and he is surpsrised because his girlfriend had died the day before, so when the

mv was viewing him, it was always the 26t

h. The girlfriend herself was still in the 25th when she called him. He ran back to the scene because he though his gf was still alive but when he got there he realizes she isn't. Then he realizes in the room that the phone linked him to his girlfriend who is stuck in the 25th, so basically he is

calling from the future. He calls her to tell her not to open the door but she thought it was a joke and she got murdered...idk where the murderer came from.
yeah the mv does not relate to the lyrics...but its still as heartbreaking

onehundredth;]

HEY! ITS MY 100th POST!!!!!!

and of course to "celebrate" i have to include beast xD
hopefully this will bring a smile to all your faces =]

gahhh i just love these boys so much...idk why! haha their voices are really beautiful and there songs are just so amazing....anywhoooo my goal is to make it to......200 now! haha lets do it! =D

9th week of school

This week was ok i guess....my camera got dropped so i haven't been able to take good pictures because its all blurrry =_= so all of these were taken from sara's camera, except the last few ones of us baking xD that is taken by my big baby =D haha the pro camera...i wish i knew how to really use it =p

This was in AP BIO xD we were doing a lab about osmosis and we took those dialysis bags and played with them. Mary decided to hang them off the strings....lol! it looks like dead people yes yes? xD

Soooo on Thursday the 50th anniversary of Sanrio came to portland XD it was in downtown. haha so we went to see all the trucks they had! it was sooooooo cute! hahah everything was supercute! but everything they sold was very EXPENSIVE! shit really expensive xD i refrained myself from buying anything XD good job tabina >=]

o0o0 yeahhh tabina was on TV tooo =] yeap from three in the morning we woke up and from like 4 on till 7ish tabina was playing tennis =] xD it was me and lily once again! muahahha

Yeah so this was friday afternoon, we were on the way home because there was nothing to do. Then i suggested lily to come over and we got sara to come xD so we went to my house and baked some cupcakes XD sara actually cooked! hahah what a special treat for me and lily xD yeah i fed them some noodles it was a funny day xD at the end we took many pictures too xD

The final product ;]

Yeah...lily was having a photoshoot for my phone and my sister's ds xD

Then we started taking pictures of ourselves XD somehow bananas were involved XD

yeah today was retarded....i was sitting in class and frekaing rediculous people stuck stickers and those sticker wrapping onto my jacket. WTF? GO BACK TO ELEMENTARY SCHOOL! seriously how immature can you be. damn i regret not saying anything....... uggggggggg