disappointment

“Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option”

How long must i be in this state? I don't know how much i can take it anymore.....everyday i seem to just be losing more and more hope for you. Just when i thought i had passed one barrier, it seems like another one just builds back up again....what is this? You are my priority, i'm always hoping you will be doing what you promised...all that you said....was it all just a lie? Why do i keep crawling back to you when i know it is just going to be the same thing....

You are not worth it......but if you really aren't..why do i keep trying? You had 31, but now you are down to 24 days.....are you taking what i purposed seriously? Am i just going to be dissapointed once again? I do not know. Am i even capable of this? I have lost all hope so far, i dont know if there's anything you can do. you haven't impressed me yet....you've shown no commitment, you don't even seem like you care to put out an effort....this is just my point of view though. who knows what excuse you will have this time...im so done with them. 24 days...no...that's too long......three...yes three more days and after that i'll be able to decide.