lalala

Sooo yesterday i went to the beach with the band class. It was nice and fun. We went to cannon and seaside becah. Seaside was fun, we played volleyball and red rover., haha it was hillarious, i haven't had that much fun in a long time. We also played truth or dare....it was interesting? haha poor jenny, she's so innocent.

I went home though, and i guess i had mood swings or something....i

was grumpy and for some reason just hatted guys =_=

This morning was ok i guess, kinda grumpy still...dont know why. Was kinda dissapointed i guess?

Its been a while since i played audition so i decided to go on and play, it was ok i guess....im tooooooo rusty =_=

Well i guess its time for me to rant again xD

the only stupid part about yesterday's trip was seeing the freaking fetal face...he's so fucking annoying and just ruins everything =_= lets hope i wont have to see him for the rest of this summer >=[

Idk what came over me yesterday night and till this minute, i just feel really down? Tired? feel like giving up i guess? i dont know, nothing seems to feel right anymore. Its like i want so much more but i know its not possible. its like i have no hope for nothing.

Maybe its just me thinking too much xD

or it could be that im waiting for someone to save me =]