today =D

yeap haven't blog in a long ass time partly because I'm a lazy ass xD

So today i woke up pretty late, i didn't come home till 2 in the morning cause we were at my dad's friend's house and they were partying. I spent the whole time there......like the first 7 hours i was just being bored online....then the last few hours i realized that i had family outing! =D so i decided to watch it and regretted not watching it sooner =] i love how it saved me from boredom. family outing FTW! but wait...i also read news that JaeSuk might be leaving the show! oh no! oh well when that day come ill still have episodes to watch cause I'm only on episode 27 i think xD

Yeah so i woke up and went to the library with my dad and sister. Then we went to the bank and i got my first paychecks cashed in =] yeah so then we went to walmart, and the whole time i was really into my book.....i don't usually read....odd xD yeah and while shopping, the bank called and said that they gave me less than what i checked in. So we went back and got the money xD

Yeap i went home and spent a long as time reading again....HAHAH BOOK NERD yeah then i attempted to do English...barely got one page done and became distracted. Facebook was distracting and then i was making a character icon....that took like 2 hours xD
yeah then i made use of our leftover turkey, i made a turkey salad sandwich, it was pretty good =D [not bragging]

yeah nothing else in my day....
but i guess my head is beginning to think again....
I was with a friend this week and she asked me a question about 'celery': "do you think he ever liked you back, do you think you missed the chance on something good?'
that got me thinking....i spent a lot of time on him, and there were times when i felt like something was coming back, but then in the end....we just drifted off...don't even talk anymore. But i think, what if....what if something was there...what if he had feelings for me too and i didn't noticed? But then again....the changes of that are soo slim. You just have that feeling where you just know they can't possibly like you, its like they see you as another guy. Shows how sometimes, even though you invest so much time in and wait and hope, you just don't have the upper hand and it all becomes useless. Sometimes waiting for something gives you hope but most of the time it brings pain or just sad thoughts, so then why do we keep waiting? WE keep waiting cause we need hope in our lives to strive forward, I keep waiting because I are stupid and can't live with the fact that i need something to support me. I keep waiting because I'm stupid and won't let go on that stupid hope that is hopeless. Mannnnnn sometimes i just want to just idk.....

HAHA done with that =D
breath tabina breath xD