vent =]

DIRT: damnit she pissed me off today! haha its not really a big deal but its probably because its her. god im mean! anywho so i had a perfect first serve that she completely missed. She goes im not ready yet so im like....uhh ok? I guess ill redo it beacuse im nice. I missed both of my serves....damnit i was like it wasn't my fault that you werent ready. And she was acting all oh ho ho im so good about it...im like DOT DOT DOT!

now about life: =]
So i just got done talking to a friend and realized that im not the only one feeling this way. We are both stuck into some sick roles. We are both hurtng from the dumbest things because we can't see the good sides of it. We all want to be able to have the strength to be confident enough to tell them, but we both let our esteems get in the way. She's confused becuase she doesn't know if she's doing the right thing, but i think she is.
Love is something you can't force onto somebody, if you dont have any feelings towards them then they dont have a chance. Would you rather find out that the person you like dont like you back by them showing/telling you? Or would you rather find out after thinking that you finally have a chance but they were faking it the whole time? In other words, its better to tell the person who likes you that you have no interest in them, so that they wont have to go through the pain of wanting to know.
Boys and girls are alike, we both have fragile hearts and we both have low self esteem when it comes to love. We both like people and wonder if they feel the same way. But even knowing that, sometimes you can't help but feel like you have no hope. People keep saying that somehwere out there is someone who does want you too, who feels the same way you are feeling. But where is that person? Why can't they just tell me so i can feel better about myself? Why can't i find my prince charming? Why do i have to be so stupid and stubborn and still stick on my broken dreams?
But i can't help myself. Sometimes just seeing them being happy with whatever they are doing just puts a smile on your face. A smile that is happy yet hiding sadness at the same time.

WHEWWW damnnn idk what got into me xD